Thoughts, Thoughts…
Sometimes I think about how we’re almost constantly under the sway of our own thoughts. It’s rare to force yourself out of that mental “noise” and simply enjoy inner silence. At times, especially when something extraordinary happens, my thoughts feel like they’re devouring me. I can genuinely feel how much energy that consumes, and sometimes it seems like my brain is about to boil over. I have to tell myself—no, I have to shout: “Stop! Quiet! Enough!!!” And how pleasant that inner silence is. It feels like I can see myself from the outside, almost on a molecular level. I love that silence and that peace. It calms me and reveals the absurdity of the chaos and endless motion. Those moments alone teach me to analyze, to see and evaluate my actions, and to ask myself questions and answer them honestly instead of running off aimlessly.
I really miss those moments alone with myself. I long to read more; if I could, I would read day and night. So I often have to force myself off the “treadmill” of life to make room for these delightful moments.
P.S. Deep, meaningful conversations with family also bring immense calm and joy, rather than mindless, automatic exchanges. We get so used to each other and to the hustle and bustle that we often don’t truly see one another. We look, but we don’t see. However, if we take the time to really observe our loved ones, especially with loving eyes, we can discover so much and derive great pleasure from it!
